EVerytime b4 i went back, mum will hold a simple makan2 for both sides, mum n dad relatives..
Alhamdulillah everything goes well...
We prepared mee kari which everyone had been asking mum 4 that.. Since we moved in 2005, they missed mum's delicious cooking and always requested for that.. Furthurmore, we are hardly visited our house overthere, including the relatives there for some certain reasons... Thus mum decide to organise makan2 when we're free especially when her daughter wanna be back 2 oversea..Im phobia to go back and visit our house and relatives overthere after the incidents that were all fresh in my mind... which can still capture the effects until now...
Now its monday early morning.. that mean it juz 4 days 2 departured.. I can sense that sys is felling hte same as me, i know its hard to be apart rite systa.. but its 4 our own good.. willc u soon end of this yer and will go 4 a holiday trip in medan =) I Love u damn much.. Be tough yeah without me...
As for my parents.. dad already said that 4 da first few weeks after i went back, he will feel lonely n the atmosphere in the houe would be soo quiet as what happen when i left 4 obs camp..
I knoe they all willbe missing me an dof cos me either!!! Mum of cos as steady as usual but deep in the heart of a mum.. we should know rite =)
The best fro today... get angpau 4m everyone!! yahoo!!! okies, nandos jom my dearest!!!
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Friday, February 20, 2009
Salam...
Now, its 20 mins to 2 in the morning... 21 feb 09...
WHen i listened to sys's zikir... i feel like crying n recite zikir together... hah abut i have my ego of cos... juz recite it in my heart... i cnat read the 'a romantic getaway' by sarah monk anymore.. the beautiful of zikir sntach my heart away... when u heard it, u feel grateful and happy with what u have.. "kesyahduan" zikir was great and touched the heart...
Mayb after my red flag hols, ill do some sunat prayer to make myself fell relief and free.. that is one factor that claimed islam id beautiful.. only by some words, it makes u free of prob and the difficulties mayb f ro awhile or forever if u sincerely ask from Allah... Insyaallah evryhting that troubling u will fly away like the heavy stone been lifted 4m ur body,......
AQhh.. y on d earth i dont have the courage to be alone at nyte and perform my sunat prayers... I had done this with my specail sumone before... i called him and we wake up together 2 perform prayers that will help us release the bad feeling .... I feel like he;s beside me and makes me that brave to wake up inthe middle of the nyte to perform sumthin gthat good 4 urself.. but now... even in syd i cant be alone .. im really frighten if i wake up inthe middle of the nyte.. semm like past experience do effect me alot and alot...
Hopefully allah can lend me dda stregnth an di can perform ibadat to be a btter muslimah and an excellence student, not forget a successfull women and solehah child n wife.. amin...
Today is the last saturday i have it here, in malaysia, b4 i wen tback to syd.... ill try to be cool nad behave as perfect as i can n enjoy the rest of d hols... will treat my family with nandos using my intern allowance.... hih although i ahvent sleep yet, but i wanna wake up early in the morning n follow mum to pasar.. pf cos dad with smile at me and ask several question after we arrive!!!! He knows me welll... all my family members know me pretty well!!!! that they really know how i feel in the last week b4 departure...
k, sys finish her prayer n zikir ... so i need to stop...
salm an dgurt nyte to all...
c u 2morrow diary =)
Allah ituh maha kuasa, mntaklah padanya dgn ikhlas dan redha , nescaya anda akn dipermudahkan dan diberi hidayah darinya.. amin :-)
Now, its 20 mins to 2 in the morning... 21 feb 09...
WHen i listened to sys's zikir... i feel like crying n recite zikir together... hah abut i have my ego of cos... juz recite it in my heart... i cnat read the 'a romantic getaway' by sarah monk anymore.. the beautiful of zikir sntach my heart away... when u heard it, u feel grateful and happy with what u have.. "kesyahduan" zikir was great and touched the heart...
Mayb after my red flag hols, ill do some sunat prayer to make myself fell relief and free.. that is one factor that claimed islam id beautiful.. only by some words, it makes u free of prob and the difficulties mayb f ro awhile or forever if u sincerely ask from Allah... Insyaallah evryhting that troubling u will fly away like the heavy stone been lifted 4m ur body,......
AQhh.. y on d earth i dont have the courage to be alone at nyte and perform my sunat prayers... I had done this with my specail sumone before... i called him and we wake up together 2 perform prayers that will help us release the bad feeling .... I feel like he;s beside me and makes me that brave to wake up inthe middle of the nyte to perform sumthin gthat good 4 urself.. but now... even in syd i cant be alone .. im really frighten if i wake up inthe middle of the nyte.. semm like past experience do effect me alot and alot...
Hopefully allah can lend me dda stregnth an di can perform ibadat to be a btter muslimah and an excellence student, not forget a successfull women and solehah child n wife.. amin...
Today is the last saturday i have it here, in malaysia, b4 i wen tback to syd.... ill try to be cool nad behave as perfect as i can n enjoy the rest of d hols... will treat my family with nandos using my intern allowance.... hih although i ahvent sleep yet, but i wanna wake up early in the morning n follow mum to pasar.. pf cos dad with smile at me and ask several question after we arrive!!!! He knows me welll... all my family members know me pretty well!!!! that they really know how i feel in the last week b4 departure...
k, sys finish her prayer n zikir ... so i need to stop...
salm an dgurt nyte to all...
c u 2morrow diary =)
Allah ituh maha kuasa, mntaklah padanya dgn ikhlas dan redha , nescaya anda akn dipermudahkan dan diberi hidayah darinya.. amin :-)
Less than 7 days to departure...
28th february 09 would be my last flight to sydney as usyd student..
at 8.35 pm in penang..
Thinking of the day 2 come, im full with negative emotion, always moody n the feeling of "its hard to say good bye" . Talkin gabout this, since when i have this sensitive emotion who reluctant to say good bye when the time comes...
Rite now, im busy preparing 4 family's umrah trip on da 9 mac, a week after i went back 2 syd.. at he same time, my head full of quention mark which n what to buy n bring it to syd... morever juz got the new that interview will be held earlier that what have been scheduled, so it makes me visit the shopping malls to shop for the formal wear ie shirt, trouser and blazer... as the size is quite large, being visiting several mall n shops are normal 4 me... and at last the one that i first seen n like it would b my choce. FOr that, i need to go for d other mall to shop for my size ie L or Xl!!! under Nicole.... the dress and shirts are smart n i like the colour .. soft, colourfeul but looked professional.. The journey will 2 be continue 2morrow =)
To nite I also talk 2 my frens and my ex which makes me more confused and guilty.. I dont know what shold i chose or do.. but the truth is i dont think im ready for a steady relationship with any of those... ahahah its better 4 me 2 know new person n start it all 4m stracth.... even its hard 2 be a couple 4m the relationship that we called fren...
After all, I would better foces the limited 1 week that i have 2 spent time with my beloved family... Mum, dad, sys n the two naughty brothers . both woth their own attittde which makes us , the systers rollong our eyes and tired all the time!! ahah but only that would make ourlife fun n merrier =) Love u guys... Will promised myself try to be happy n enjoy the remaining hols with u guys without the 'spoil mood"...
The barrier is of cos the online test n essay that need to be hand in b4 my departure.. i need time to sot down n do it withpout interuption.. but y on earth during end of this hols.. less than aweek 4 me to prepare for all other thing.. n this is one of the reasons y im MOOODy...
k, will write back soon. n tell stories about obs n all... mayb the summary of my 3 months hols in malaysia... tata =)
Ya allah, give me strength so that i can achieve what i want n have the endurance for all the challenges in life... Hopefully evrything goes well n great with ur will.. bless me =)
28th february 09 would be my last flight to sydney as usyd student..
at 8.35 pm in penang..
Thinking of the day 2 come, im full with negative emotion, always moody n the feeling of "its hard to say good bye" . Talkin gabout this, since when i have this sensitive emotion who reluctant to say good bye when the time comes...
Rite now, im busy preparing 4 family's umrah trip on da 9 mac, a week after i went back 2 syd.. at he same time, my head full of quention mark which n what to buy n bring it to syd... morever juz got the new that interview will be held earlier that what have been scheduled, so it makes me visit the shopping malls to shop for the formal wear ie shirt, trouser and blazer... as the size is quite large, being visiting several mall n shops are normal 4 me... and at last the one that i first seen n like it would b my choce. FOr that, i need to go for d other mall to shop for my size ie L or Xl!!! under Nicole.... the dress and shirts are smart n i like the colour .. soft, colourfeul but looked professional.. The journey will 2 be continue 2morrow =)
To nite I also talk 2 my frens and my ex which makes me more confused and guilty.. I dont know what shold i chose or do.. but the truth is i dont think im ready for a steady relationship with any of those... ahahah its better 4 me 2 know new person n start it all 4m stracth.... even its hard 2 be a couple 4m the relationship that we called fren...
After all, I would better foces the limited 1 week that i have 2 spent time with my beloved family... Mum, dad, sys n the two naughty brothers . both woth their own attittde which makes us , the systers rollong our eyes and tired all the time!! ahah but only that would make ourlife fun n merrier =) Love u guys... Will promised myself try to be happy n enjoy the remaining hols with u guys without the 'spoil mood"...
The barrier is of cos the online test n essay that need to be hand in b4 my departure.. i need time to sot down n do it withpout interuption.. but y on earth during end of this hols.. less than aweek 4 me to prepare for all other thing.. n this is one of the reasons y im MOOODy...
k, will write back soon. n tell stories about obs n all... mayb the summary of my 3 months hols in malaysia... tata =)
Ya allah, give me strength so that i can achieve what i want n have the endurance for all the challenges in life... Hopefully evrything goes well n great with ur will.. bless me =)
Monday, December 22, 2008
internship for 5-6 weeks
salam alaiyk..
currently in d office in bandar sunway penang.. afta such along time,ive d opportunity to write this blog...
lets talk about my internship in signtake accouting firm or zuhairi mohamad & co..
First day, there's no works for me to do until i felt very mad... but aftaer 3.30 pm finally i manage to get it, that is my first work is audit, to balance d account, im quite blank afta such a long break from the books, bt after being explained by the syster here, i got it. gues wat, wat i did was rite, it juz the formula in the excel was wrong... luckily its not me who has the prob =)
Before that, let me tlak about my first day here, after my dad sent me here, after some breakfast ( d 1st one at nasmir nasik kandar, sejuk gle nasi) then i arrive here early. we need to wait for the staff to open d offic en atlast i mange to ge tin n the 1st sys i know is kak farah. She's a good sys, then kak umi, kak fida, kak suri, kak ain, kak zah, lastly the only bro here.
I thought the fir is like n office, but its more like home office which the environment is not as buzy as normal intenational accotning firm liek pwc or other big 4 firm. all of them were so relax but they did their work on itme of cos.. if not mati..a hahhaha
first day, i was interviewed by the systers abotu my uni, subject , syllabus n all. one of the sys was surprised that i didnt learn about the accounting software. i can feel that to her my uni i sucks, inner in me, there's fire burning fiercely.. its alrite i juz be cool first... luckily i mange to tahan...
2nd day, i was taught to use ubs, the accouting software, i thought its hard until the sys "pandang readah the uni system" but its acctually easy... sooo wat does it means??? hahaha
the week after dat im so bored until i asked fo rjobs from other systers which involve company secretary n filing... i was an easy task but so remeh n not suitabel for sumone "cemerkap" likme.. but i mange to finish all tha tby myself all da companies!!!!
after that weeks, there goes one day doing tax filing under en zaidi... again alll d afile in one day..
thats my priciple, all jobs need to be doen within one day... cant be da day after that.. must be efficient =)
da weeks after that, which is dis week, kak uni, citra n kak eja went to kulin for some audit task, so just left 6 of us here... n the 'captains' are all outsation too, gpin to kl to d other branch.. its was sooo like heaven , but not for me, i cant stand doing nothing.. i want job!!!! huhuh
thats me.... cant sit properly without anything, ding nothing will make me feel sick...
k, gtg. office hours wil end soon.. tata
currently in d office in bandar sunway penang.. afta such along time,ive d opportunity to write this blog...
lets talk about my internship in signtake accouting firm or zuhairi mohamad & co..
First day, there's no works for me to do until i felt very mad... but aftaer 3.30 pm finally i manage to get it, that is my first work is audit, to balance d account, im quite blank afta such a long break from the books, bt after being explained by the syster here, i got it. gues wat, wat i did was rite, it juz the formula in the excel was wrong... luckily its not me who has the prob =)
Before that, let me tlak about my first day here, after my dad sent me here, after some breakfast ( d 1st one at nasmir nasik kandar, sejuk gle nasi) then i arrive here early. we need to wait for the staff to open d offic en atlast i mange to ge tin n the 1st sys i know is kak farah. She's a good sys, then kak umi, kak fida, kak suri, kak ain, kak zah, lastly the only bro here.
I thought the fir is like n office, but its more like home office which the environment is not as buzy as normal intenational accotning firm liek pwc or other big 4 firm. all of them were so relax but they did their work on itme of cos.. if not mati..a hahhaha
first day, i was interviewed by the systers abotu my uni, subject , syllabus n all. one of the sys was surprised that i didnt learn about the accounting software. i can feel that to her my uni i sucks, inner in me, there's fire burning fiercely.. its alrite i juz be cool first... luckily i mange to tahan...
2nd day, i was taught to use ubs, the accouting software, i thought its hard until the sys "pandang readah the uni system" but its acctually easy... sooo wat does it means??? hahaha
the week after dat im so bored until i asked fo rjobs from other systers which involve company secretary n filing... i was an easy task but so remeh n not suitabel for sumone "cemerkap" likme.. but i mange to finish all tha tby myself all da companies!!!!
after that weeks, there goes one day doing tax filing under en zaidi... again alll d afile in one day..
thats my priciple, all jobs need to be doen within one day... cant be da day after that.. must be efficient =)
da weeks after that, which is dis week, kak uni, citra n kak eja went to kulin for some audit task, so just left 6 of us here... n the 'captains' are all outsation too, gpin to kl to d other branch.. its was sooo like heaven , but not for me, i cant stand doing nothing.. i want job!!!! huhuh
thats me.... cant sit properly without anything, ding nothing will make me feel sick...
k, gtg. office hours wil end soon.. tata
Monday, November 17, 2008
Kuar ke merrickville wit kak syu
huhu
sgt menaril kuar lps exam wit kak syu...
we ate at the chicken stop, buy half set of baked chicken...a lthough its not htaht much, but were really full until cant really think well.. ahhaha.. damn right...
ape alg kuar ngn org ratu shopping, kak syu ajar jugak cmne nk bli brg2 rumah, malangnye duit hampir kehabesan, so x leh bli,,,, so hopefully she's stil here nx yer ie awal tahun so that canhelp me hias my bilik yg sentiasa bersepah..
p/s: Kak Syu, kte kne kuar lg b4 aini blk.. best kuar =)
Im really2 ba din cleaning.... heyh cmne nk kawin nih, x reti kemas rumah!!! buat sepah je reti!!
once dad said to me, my 1st ex, bdk it, my 2nd ex, bdk geology then da future rahsia... then dad say to me, adek do u know that, klu lecturer ke, businessman ke sallu la gak ade kt ruamh, tp geology tuh.... slalukah ade kt umah... huhu yeah rite!! betul jugak kte ayah anak die ini manja... n juga penakat keseorangan..... hurmmm... xpe2.. there;s stil couples of years lg 4 me to think about this... klu jodoh ade x kemane.... klu terpase berjauhan sekejap pn.... asalkan ade teman.. sbb
yea mengaku, i cant be alone!!!
4 u guys info, ive neva been alone at my house in penang....
so i can survive here was really2 good achiement.. but thats me, i can survive, but deep inside my heart, m da oen who knows.... how i iwsh i ve sumoen to rely on here.... bu tits alrite.. dh biase n i juz have 1 more yer!! =) yahoooo!!!
tp x nk keje lg.. x matured enough lg..but must follow the flow.. kerja canmake u matang...
samela spt duduk d perantauan by ur own =)
nytes everyone...
sgt menaril kuar lps exam wit kak syu...
we ate at the chicken stop, buy half set of baked chicken...a lthough its not htaht much, but were really full until cant really think well.. ahhaha.. damn right...
ape alg kuar ngn org ratu shopping, kak syu ajar jugak cmne nk bli brg2 rumah, malangnye duit hampir kehabesan, so x leh bli,,,, so hopefully she's stil here nx yer ie awal tahun so that canhelp me hias my bilik yg sentiasa bersepah..
p/s: Kak Syu, kte kne kuar lg b4 aini blk.. best kuar =)
Im really2 ba din cleaning.... heyh cmne nk kawin nih, x reti kemas rumah!!! buat sepah je reti!!
once dad said to me, my 1st ex, bdk it, my 2nd ex, bdk geology then da future rahsia... then dad say to me, adek do u know that, klu lecturer ke, businessman ke sallu la gak ade kt ruamh, tp geology tuh.... slalukah ade kt umah... huhu yeah rite!! betul jugak kte ayah anak die ini manja... n juga penakat keseorangan..... hurmmm... xpe2.. there;s stil couples of years lg 4 me to think about this... klu jodoh ade x kemane.... klu terpase berjauhan sekejap pn.... asalkan ade teman.. sbb
yea mengaku, i cant be alone!!!
4 u guys info, ive neva been alone at my house in penang....
so i can survive here was really2 good achiement.. but thats me, i can survive, but deep inside my heart, m da oen who knows.... how i iwsh i ve sumoen to rely on here.... bu tits alrite.. dh biase n i juz have 1 more yer!! =) yahoooo!!!
tp x nk keje lg.. x matured enough lg..but must follow the flow.. kerja canmake u matang...
samela spt duduk d perantauan by ur own =)
nytes everyone...
After exam, Im free but so bored!
Salam alaiyk... Today sharp at 11.11 pm, i finish my final exam for this sem, ie 2nd year in sydney uni. I feel great and can run easily, fell like the heavy metal have gone away... however, feeling bored after exam without movies and all make me feel bad!!! aargh.. feeling like wanna b with my family as soon as possible, so that i can do what i want, spent itme with them( where they are starting their scul hols today), no need to care about what to eat, all will b on the table...
huhuh After my exam, the first ym that i sent to a person that is offlien is him, i said thaat im so glad that ive finished my exam and hows hes doing. Greatfully, aftet i went back 4m merrickville, and b4 i go aout again to tak emy noritalke and visit a fren in hosp, he replied!!! yahoo!! How i wish i could continue to chat with him without any interuption, but god knows more.. may b we will have plenty of time for us together nx time... Ill see him soon, but that time, in few days, ill be going back to mesia, and he's stil here... truthfully 4m bottom of my heart, i miss u lots! i know its not good, but i do miss u.
My fren, shahir had his operation tonight, i hope that i can help him, but as im a gurl, not much that i can help, esp when his boy frens also dont really be by his side.. wateva, ill pray that ull get well soon... n can go to japan as u wish.. ahhah but if im ur mum, i wont give permisson for it. I went to the hospital juz 4 a while, i smelt the bad smell of the hospital that made me cant stand and went outside. the sharp picagari tube 4 injection.. made me more afraid. wat to say.. im borned with the feeling of doctors, nurse, hospital, medcine and injection fears. I wonder how i gonna be a mum when im married.. hahah but wit whom yeah...
oo yeah, this ques, with whom, remind me of my ex.. i know both of my ex stil have da feeling in me, even some people around here too, but love cant be forced.. ive promised to myself no more tolerate to the love that ive lost or which ive break wit my bf... the last itme was early last yer... ill juz look forward, n i found sumone.. He;s da one that i like, although we hardly meet each other, but i do love him,.... like n love, 2 complicated and different words.. if u like sumone , it doesnt mean u love him, bu tif u lovehim, u like nad care him, like what happen to me n my mr right... he replid my message to day, n i m extremely happy althoguh i want more than that... bu ti cant expect any after the incident on my burfday, i know he;s relaly frustrated but believe me, i more than taht, im vr sad... but we'll see how these work =) tkae care yeah 4 u overthere, pls do inform that, i miss u alwiz n i do care about u!
ive also applied my internship in signtech accounting firm in penang branch. hu hu after i reject the 3 offer my pwc... so hopefully i will get his one, and have m intern in seberang jaya.. And if he dint get his job here, hopefully he;s going back n i wish i can see him.. but of cos ill pray that he get it 4 his own benefit =)
muahx
ps: all da best in taking ur medical result today, ill pray that everything goes well 4 u sys =)
love, adek
Thursday, November 13, 2008
da same day.. da same thought, da same attitude, da same heart, da same me n u!
how i wish i could accidently see u...
n talk to u as we usually do when were together trying to avoid others..haha
so klaka!
i hate cosi keep thinking about u...
y its take a lon gitme for u to sa any words..
i know ure hurt.. but pls im really hurt too..
at least u can enjoy ur day outing wit others!
hahha now my turn for some complain about my internship.!!!
how i wish i ahve my unlce working wit big 4 accoutning firm and hten i can do internship wit that company of wat field i like!!!
but da truth is,i ve already rejected all d offer they offered me as they call when im stil sleeping
which i end up talking nonsense n reject all 3 offers!!!! aargh..
now ill officially unemployed during summer in malaysia,
so my aim is to be a good daughter... and stil contact wit my loved one? is it possible.. muahhaha
helps systa to do the chores whish i hate da most... haha
i had a fight with my sys becos of that until i sadi to her that go back 2 uk!!! then im free of all these..
ahhahaha but thats so not true! i love her so much until its hard 2 be apart.. i know she's a vr good person but being quite depress wit her situation induced her to be like that..
wateva happen, ure my beloved sys and ill love, share n help u forever! muahx
mum and dad bought the new avanza 4 our family car... so my mission is holiday wit family wit the new car.. ahhah , so malaysai , wil see u on da 27th! but will left u here on that day too =(
Can sumone go n see him 4 me? thats so impossible, da feeling of love is not that valuable or can be called as LOVE is its nt complicated enough.. huhu damn right!
Slamt menunaikn solat jumaat =)
n talk to u as we usually do when were together trying to avoid others..haha
so klaka!
i hate cosi keep thinking about u...
y its take a lon gitme for u to sa any words..
i know ure hurt.. but pls im really hurt too..
at least u can enjoy ur day outing wit others!
hahha now my turn for some complain about my internship.!!!
how i wish i ahve my unlce working wit big 4 accoutning firm and hten i can do internship wit that company of wat field i like!!!
but da truth is,i ve already rejected all d offer they offered me as they call when im stil sleeping
which i end up talking nonsense n reject all 3 offers!!!! aargh..
now ill officially unemployed during summer in malaysia,
so my aim is to be a good daughter... and stil contact wit my loved one? is it possible.. muahhaha
helps systa to do the chores whish i hate da most... haha
i had a fight with my sys becos of that until i sadi to her that go back 2 uk!!! then im free of all these..
ahhahaha but thats so not true! i love her so much until its hard 2 be apart.. i know she's a vr good person but being quite depress wit her situation induced her to be like that..
wateva happen, ure my beloved sys and ill love, share n help u forever! muahx
mum and dad bought the new avanza 4 our family car... so my mission is holiday wit family wit the new car.. ahhah , so malaysai , wil see u on da 27th! but will left u here on that day too =(
Can sumone go n see him 4 me? thats so impossible, da feeling of love is not that valuable or can be called as LOVE is its nt complicated enough.. huhu damn right!
Slamt menunaikn solat jumaat =)
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