EVerytime b4 i went back, mum will hold a simple makan2 for both sides, mum n dad relatives..
Alhamdulillah everything goes well...
We prepared mee kari which everyone had been asking mum 4 that.. Since we moved in 2005, they missed mum's delicious cooking and always requested for that.. Furthurmore, we are hardly visited our house overthere, including the relatives there for some certain reasons... Thus mum decide to organise makan2 when we're free especially when her daughter wanna be back 2 oversea..Im phobia to go back and visit our house and relatives overthere after the incidents that were all fresh in my mind... which can still capture the effects until now...
Now its monday early morning.. that mean it juz 4 days 2 departured.. I can sense that sys is felling hte same as me, i know its hard to be apart rite systa.. but its 4 our own good.. willc u soon end of this yer and will go 4 a holiday trip in medan =) I Love u damn much.. Be tough yeah without me...
As for my parents.. dad already said that 4 da first few weeks after i went back, he will feel lonely n the atmosphere in the houe would be soo quiet as what happen when i left 4 obs camp..
I knoe they all willbe missing me an dof cos me either!!! Mum of cos as steady as usual but deep in the heart of a mum.. we should know rite =)
The best fro today... get angpau 4m everyone!! yahoo!!! okies, nandos jom my dearest!!!
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Friday, February 20, 2009
Salam...
Now, its 20 mins to 2 in the morning... 21 feb 09...
WHen i listened to sys's zikir... i feel like crying n recite zikir together... hah abut i have my ego of cos... juz recite it in my heart... i cnat read the 'a romantic getaway' by sarah monk anymore.. the beautiful of zikir sntach my heart away... when u heard it, u feel grateful and happy with what u have.. "kesyahduan" zikir was great and touched the heart...
Mayb after my red flag hols, ill do some sunat prayer to make myself fell relief and free.. that is one factor that claimed islam id beautiful.. only by some words, it makes u free of prob and the difficulties mayb f ro awhile or forever if u sincerely ask from Allah... Insyaallah evryhting that troubling u will fly away like the heavy stone been lifted 4m ur body,......
AQhh.. y on d earth i dont have the courage to be alone at nyte and perform my sunat prayers... I had done this with my specail sumone before... i called him and we wake up together 2 perform prayers that will help us release the bad feeling .... I feel like he;s beside me and makes me that brave to wake up inthe middle of the nyte to perform sumthin gthat good 4 urself.. but now... even in syd i cant be alone .. im really frighten if i wake up inthe middle of the nyte.. semm like past experience do effect me alot and alot...
Hopefully allah can lend me dda stregnth an di can perform ibadat to be a btter muslimah and an excellence student, not forget a successfull women and solehah child n wife.. amin...
Today is the last saturday i have it here, in malaysia, b4 i wen tback to syd.... ill try to be cool nad behave as perfect as i can n enjoy the rest of d hols... will treat my family with nandos using my intern allowance.... hih although i ahvent sleep yet, but i wanna wake up early in the morning n follow mum to pasar.. pf cos dad with smile at me and ask several question after we arrive!!!! He knows me welll... all my family members know me pretty well!!!! that they really know how i feel in the last week b4 departure...
k, sys finish her prayer n zikir ... so i need to stop...
salm an dgurt nyte to all...
c u 2morrow diary =)
Allah ituh maha kuasa, mntaklah padanya dgn ikhlas dan redha , nescaya anda akn dipermudahkan dan diberi hidayah darinya.. amin :-)
Now, its 20 mins to 2 in the morning... 21 feb 09...
WHen i listened to sys's zikir... i feel like crying n recite zikir together... hah abut i have my ego of cos... juz recite it in my heart... i cnat read the 'a romantic getaway' by sarah monk anymore.. the beautiful of zikir sntach my heart away... when u heard it, u feel grateful and happy with what u have.. "kesyahduan" zikir was great and touched the heart...
Mayb after my red flag hols, ill do some sunat prayer to make myself fell relief and free.. that is one factor that claimed islam id beautiful.. only by some words, it makes u free of prob and the difficulties mayb f ro awhile or forever if u sincerely ask from Allah... Insyaallah evryhting that troubling u will fly away like the heavy stone been lifted 4m ur body,......
AQhh.. y on d earth i dont have the courage to be alone at nyte and perform my sunat prayers... I had done this with my specail sumone before... i called him and we wake up together 2 perform prayers that will help us release the bad feeling .... I feel like he;s beside me and makes me that brave to wake up inthe middle of the nyte to perform sumthin gthat good 4 urself.. but now... even in syd i cant be alone .. im really frighten if i wake up inthe middle of the nyte.. semm like past experience do effect me alot and alot...
Hopefully allah can lend me dda stregnth an di can perform ibadat to be a btter muslimah and an excellence student, not forget a successfull women and solehah child n wife.. amin...
Today is the last saturday i have it here, in malaysia, b4 i wen tback to syd.... ill try to be cool nad behave as perfect as i can n enjoy the rest of d hols... will treat my family with nandos using my intern allowance.... hih although i ahvent sleep yet, but i wanna wake up early in the morning n follow mum to pasar.. pf cos dad with smile at me and ask several question after we arrive!!!! He knows me welll... all my family members know me pretty well!!!! that they really know how i feel in the last week b4 departure...
k, sys finish her prayer n zikir ... so i need to stop...
salm an dgurt nyte to all...
c u 2morrow diary =)
Allah ituh maha kuasa, mntaklah padanya dgn ikhlas dan redha , nescaya anda akn dipermudahkan dan diberi hidayah darinya.. amin :-)
Less than 7 days to departure...
28th february 09 would be my last flight to sydney as usyd student..
at 8.35 pm in penang..
Thinking of the day 2 come, im full with negative emotion, always moody n the feeling of "its hard to say good bye" . Talkin gabout this, since when i have this sensitive emotion who reluctant to say good bye when the time comes...
Rite now, im busy preparing 4 family's umrah trip on da 9 mac, a week after i went back 2 syd.. at he same time, my head full of quention mark which n what to buy n bring it to syd... morever juz got the new that interview will be held earlier that what have been scheduled, so it makes me visit the shopping malls to shop for the formal wear ie shirt, trouser and blazer... as the size is quite large, being visiting several mall n shops are normal 4 me... and at last the one that i first seen n like it would b my choce. FOr that, i need to go for d other mall to shop for my size ie L or Xl!!! under Nicole.... the dress and shirts are smart n i like the colour .. soft, colourfeul but looked professional.. The journey will 2 be continue 2morrow =)
To nite I also talk 2 my frens and my ex which makes me more confused and guilty.. I dont know what shold i chose or do.. but the truth is i dont think im ready for a steady relationship with any of those... ahahah its better 4 me 2 know new person n start it all 4m stracth.... even its hard 2 be a couple 4m the relationship that we called fren...
After all, I would better foces the limited 1 week that i have 2 spent time with my beloved family... Mum, dad, sys n the two naughty brothers . both woth their own attittde which makes us , the systers rollong our eyes and tired all the time!! ahah but only that would make ourlife fun n merrier =) Love u guys... Will promised myself try to be happy n enjoy the remaining hols with u guys without the 'spoil mood"...
The barrier is of cos the online test n essay that need to be hand in b4 my departure.. i need time to sot down n do it withpout interuption.. but y on earth during end of this hols.. less than aweek 4 me to prepare for all other thing.. n this is one of the reasons y im MOOODy...
k, will write back soon. n tell stories about obs n all... mayb the summary of my 3 months hols in malaysia... tata =)
Ya allah, give me strength so that i can achieve what i want n have the endurance for all the challenges in life... Hopefully evrything goes well n great with ur will.. bless me =)
28th february 09 would be my last flight to sydney as usyd student..
at 8.35 pm in penang..
Thinking of the day 2 come, im full with negative emotion, always moody n the feeling of "its hard to say good bye" . Talkin gabout this, since when i have this sensitive emotion who reluctant to say good bye when the time comes...
Rite now, im busy preparing 4 family's umrah trip on da 9 mac, a week after i went back 2 syd.. at he same time, my head full of quention mark which n what to buy n bring it to syd... morever juz got the new that interview will be held earlier that what have been scheduled, so it makes me visit the shopping malls to shop for the formal wear ie shirt, trouser and blazer... as the size is quite large, being visiting several mall n shops are normal 4 me... and at last the one that i first seen n like it would b my choce. FOr that, i need to go for d other mall to shop for my size ie L or Xl!!! under Nicole.... the dress and shirts are smart n i like the colour .. soft, colourfeul but looked professional.. The journey will 2 be continue 2morrow =)
To nite I also talk 2 my frens and my ex which makes me more confused and guilty.. I dont know what shold i chose or do.. but the truth is i dont think im ready for a steady relationship with any of those... ahahah its better 4 me 2 know new person n start it all 4m stracth.... even its hard 2 be a couple 4m the relationship that we called fren...
After all, I would better foces the limited 1 week that i have 2 spent time with my beloved family... Mum, dad, sys n the two naughty brothers . both woth their own attittde which makes us , the systers rollong our eyes and tired all the time!! ahah but only that would make ourlife fun n merrier =) Love u guys... Will promised myself try to be happy n enjoy the remaining hols with u guys without the 'spoil mood"...
The barrier is of cos the online test n essay that need to be hand in b4 my departure.. i need time to sot down n do it withpout interuption.. but y on earth during end of this hols.. less than aweek 4 me to prepare for all other thing.. n this is one of the reasons y im MOOODy...
k, will write back soon. n tell stories about obs n all... mayb the summary of my 3 months hols in malaysia... tata =)
Ya allah, give me strength so that i can achieve what i want n have the endurance for all the challenges in life... Hopefully evrything goes well n great with ur will.. bless me =)
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