Salam...

Now, its 20 mins to 2 in the morning... 21 feb 09...

WHen i listened to sys's zikir... i feel like crying n recite zikir together... hah abut i have my ego of cos... juz recite it in my heart... i cnat read the 'a romantic getaway' by sarah monk anymore.. the beautiful of zikir sntach my heart away... when u heard it, u feel grateful and happy with what u have.. "kesyahduan" zikir was great and touched the heart...

Mayb after my red flag hols, ill do some sunat prayer to make myself fell relief and free.. that is one factor that claimed islam id beautiful.. only by some words, it makes u free of prob and the difficulties mayb f ro awhile or forever if u sincerely ask from Allah... Insyaallah evryhting that troubling u will fly away like the heavy stone been lifted 4m ur body,......

AQhh.. y on d earth i dont have the courage to be alone at nyte and perform my sunat prayers... I had done this with my specail sumone before... i called him and we wake up together 2 perform prayers that will help us release the bad feeling .... I feel like he;s beside me and makes me that brave to wake up inthe middle of the nyte to perform sumthin gthat good 4 urself.. but now... even in syd i cant be alone .. im really frighten if i wake up inthe middle of the nyte.. semm like past experience do effect me alot and alot...

Hopefully allah can lend me dda stregnth an di can perform ibadat to be a btter muslimah and an excellence student, not forget a successfull women and solehah child n wife.. amin...

Today is the last saturday i have it here, in malaysia, b4 i wen tback to syd.... ill try to be cool nad behave as perfect as i can n enjoy the rest of d hols... will treat my family with nandos using my intern allowance.... hih although i ahvent sleep yet, but i wanna wake up early in the morning n follow mum to pasar.. pf cos dad with smile at me and ask several question after we arrive!!!! He knows me welll... all my family members know me pretty well!!!! that they really know how i feel in the last week b4 departure...

k, sys finish her prayer n zikir ... so i need to stop...
salm an dgurt nyte to all...
c u 2morrow diary =)

Allah ituh maha kuasa, mntaklah padanya dgn ikhlas dan redha , nescaya anda akn dipermudahkan dan diberi hidayah darinya.. amin :-)